I been stressed out and I cant think of what I am done. I know I have things to do before two weeks vacation. I felt awful and angry inside. I have mopped, maybe some more mopping in other room that need be clean, too. We should have vacummn here. I have to clean the tub and chalk on the trim, too. I have some errands to go, too. Sigh.

Stress from people who wanting me come over for the little trip that will use the money. I not have enough money to go anywhere but vacation. I have pay bills and notice it been go down more than I expects. Now, I figures that Ihave not any money for the vacation! I am so pisses and stress from people who wanting me come over for the little trip. Not understand why they let me go without no worry about my money ?? I not happy about that and not want get overwheled with risk, again. I not want do that again so I keep myself low from trouble.

I woud enjoy to go on trip but near to my cruise vacation which is starts NEXT WEEKEND!!! I have lost my 40 dollars for that! I not ever gone to haircut yet!! Two checks come and not helping with my bills I plan pay next week. Sigh.

I have to access this and was hope today was peace. It is not peace for
me. Sigh. People makes me feel like I am stressed and can not make it
right. I finally give the answer to mentors and not need that stress
again. I have been think about household needs before vacations and
seem too fast for me. I did not start anything yet.... Just YET!
Stress stuck in me right now. I like to see household clean before I
leave for two weeks vacation.

Clean bathroom....vucumm...mopping...mowing...trimming the grass.
Sigh. I need a haircut! *sob* out of town for a day. Why me ??
Stress!

*smh*
~ If a sunflower raises its head, expect rain. ~

Well, I am here on laptop and hiding from front door.

I am forwarding to be on Cruise but nervous! It is my frist time to be on BIG BOAT. I used to fishing boat, shipping boat or skiing boat..... but BIG SHIP. I am not forward for any storm there but islands. Oh, I cant believe I told Missy that I am ready to pack right away! She pulled me down little bit because it is not ready till two more weeks to go! *giggle*

Other than this, black bear is so spoiled by me and very lovely with me all the time even in bed! Loveable fall with Missy. PeeWee have good pay attention from us but upset with two new rookie cats. Angel is "I" and more comforable to be with dad (loveable). Two new rookie cats are Foxie and Sweetie. Both are friendly and feather alike. *giggle* Sweetie would prefer to stay down in basement because of PeeWee but she come up for food and drink. Foxie come up and among cats but PeeWee chase him all the time.

Oh I need to go because I forget to tidy up little before I am leaving for work.